While i was bathing this morning, i started wondering what talent i have. What acually brought me abt to think abt this is i rmbed my mother saying two of her colleagues are gifted with beautiful voices made for speaking, broadcasting news ot stuff like tt. Then i rmb-ed how mr lee, my ex-principle from Xinmin, would say tt everybody has a diff gift or talent. We just have to find out what it is, and make full use of it. But i thought and thought, and i just can't find one. God also said tt He has a purpose for everybody, abd we are gifted with various things. But right now, i have no idea what's mine.

I'm not academically inclined - there are a lot of other students in Sg who are much better than me. Contrary to some ppl's belief, my studies and esp my language, is not tt good. There are times when my eng fail my while i'm speaking, and i juz cringe inside. I'm not musically inclined - the only musical instrument is i know is the recorder, which every student in Sg knows and my singing is not tt good. I'm not sports inclined - altho i like to play ball games, i'm not really good at them. My memory might be better than some ppl, but it still fails me. So where does tt leave me?

U might say my character and stuff like that, and i have thought of tt. But i still found myself short. I'm not pretty or attractive (obviously). I'm not tt kind-hearted - i might feel guilty if i reject a student asking for donations, or seeing sb in distress, but my guilt is not enough to propel me towards acting out. (FYI, i do help ppl i see in distress. Sometimes. But that's not enough to count as a kind-hearted person.) I'm not good with ppl, or sociable like my sis or Liz. Somehow, i cannot find a common topic with most ppl, or click with them. Stms, i think my sis shld be e one being in e service line, rather than me. I can't speak really well like some of my church friends. i get stage fright when i speak in front of a crowd. And that's y i don't dare to stand up for what i believe in stms, esp for God. Some of my poly frens have been saying tt i'm straightfoward. Whatever i'm feeling, unless i make special effort to hide it, would show on my face or show in my words. Some ppl might say that that is a good point. But i dont think so. I offend ppl. I'm not that patient, or tolerant towards my students or stms, friends and family. I flare up at them. Which means i don't have a good temper, which means i don't have control. My determination and tenacity sucks.

I'm not feeling sorry for myself. Really. I don't feel sad at all. Not really at all, but no tears are welling up in my eyes as i type this. so don't worry. It's just that i was wondering while bathing what my talent was, and started to sift through my mind talents other ppl have. And i realized i have none! Seems like i'm more avg than that guy Aaron in e Eye for a Guy2 show. Haha.

Anyway, i can't think of any other ways i could be talented in. If you can think of any way i might be, pls tell me. I'll go and think abt it. And pls don't tell me that from this entry mayb i'm humble or wadeva. To me, humility shld be in everybody.